There was time when i was about 9 yrs old..haha..i dint pay attention during science klass and during exam time,i was blur...and i answered this qn...

What Happen If You Poke A Ballon With A Pin?

I answered...It Will BOOM..

Boom instead of Burst..

Cuzzies Outing.

hie people...fuuhhh,just nw was maths..hahahaha..last semester i got 68 for maths...hahaha..according to o level..its B3..WOW...hahha


BANGGA...

ok luckily i managed to do the sums..hah,its hard,yeah of kos..hehehe..but we wont know its easy until we try and practice..to my silat frens..im sorry i have to withdraw from tanding coz due to my ringht ankle injury,insyaAllah i will try to train my leg again..biasekan kaki exercise..

and seorg ustaz berkata to my fren whom recently jadi kendarat and betaburkan pinggan..

Pengalaman membuat kita lebih matang..yeah...

When i entered the mosque..i hold up my arm with my palm open..

...Allahummaf Tahli Abwaba Rahmatik...

When im inside the mosque..i prayed and ask Allah all the stuffs that has happened in life...

i let out everything from my heart and will sart to cry..crying and letting out each of every feelings of mine...Sometimes i did felt as if im a very very very very bad person in life after i had let it out..

I will ask y i should be the one who has to be patient??

But i know when we are patient,Allah is beside us..he loves his creation to be patient...

And I ask him...

Allah,i have no power,nothing compared to you..

I leave it to you Allah..

I read a book about this one special prayer...it is called as i know..Istikharah....i was introduced to this prayer when i had problems choosing the path which is good for me and as well being protected from Allah....

This prayer is suitable for people who having difficulties to decide which is the best for them..

In this prayer,one seek Allah's guidance and help to ease the problems around them...Because Allah knows everything even things thats invisible in life..Ya,thats ALLAH..he's Al-Malik..

Al-Malik means king of the kings...

So in this prayer,Allah will show us the answers that we've been looking for..the problems will vanished away..

So before we ask him,we should ask him these three things...

YA ALLAH,GIVE US UR GUIDANCE FOR WHICH IS BEST FOR OUR RELIGION?OUR LIFE?OURSELVES?

The answers to the prayers may come through...REALITY,DREAMS,HEART..

but most commonly it is performed by people whose getting married,so that they don't choose wrongly...

InsyaAllah..

Days..

Last Monday..last day of school till april...WOW..wednesday,1 year my granny left us..miss u nenek..

Conversation...

Mariah :......Actually every gerl in this werld wants to be w a guy who have alot of knowledge in islam..the one who can guide them one day...the one that has good ilmu and all...

Myself :.....ouh so ur saying every gerl in this dunia looking for a guy or husband that can guide them,slowly and etc...

Mariah :...ya,actualli...truthfully i say im attracted to ur knowledge...semue wanita inginkan org mcm gtu..agama kuat,berilmu,and mcm2...

Myself :..ouh ok..insyaAllah u will find someone like tat..mcm surah an noor..org yang baik akan bersama dengan org yang baik manakala yang jahat dengan org yang jahat..

Mariah:...yea,its something like tat....






Conversation between me and her...fuh mcm kene temuduga...hahahaha...but ya,maybe its true...women do look for man with great knowledge about religion...well i guessed tats true rite mariah?...hmmm so just relax..insyaAllah there will be one for u...Although u dint say much..i can read from inside....haha...great silat kickings eh..


Issit true for women???...issit right?????

That every gerl wants to be with a guy yang kuat agama??..even my sis says so..

Issit?

I Don't know.....

NYP VS SP

Sapu Shaz...

AMEK KAU...

PASANG......

Mosque....

Do You Miss Shazrul??

Fehrin Said.... Yeah..I Can Always Find Him In The Mosque...

Darul Ghufran..

Why??

Lastime i was called an immature..i wont learnt a lesson,i wont learnt my misatkes..
but now i do..im matured enough to make me realise how important life is...
do u like it if someone u loved most,but now with oda ppl and said to u abt the new person??...obviously people will hurt...

so many books ive read and i learnt alot...y must people take advantage of people who is really patient,commited and all...wen someone found a new pair,fren and oda stuffs,they forget the old people...

they say that people are like that...and i once cried alot of times..y my grandmother go away to the oda werld?...i regret and i wished she is still alive..bcoz i dont really talked to her tat much wen im bz w oda ppl,sch and stuffs..but now i really the great loss...same goes for families and frens and relatives...somtimes im angry and wanna scold...but i think again.theres no need...


but as i grow older..i wonder..i have a good fren,best fren and love..natasha..shes a fren of mine and she always made me smile..hazmi who always give me support when im having my depression in life..yasin,who always talked w me abt movies and sch stuffs..helmi who always made critical jokes that always put a smile on my face...

tashy always says to me that shes having some probs and i think..i may have problems ard me but there are other people whos having much more than me...

i do find shes diff,from lastime..the way she talked..and stuffs..3 years we separated..from 2007..wow..i missed them all...

that's lousy man...maybe we nid to undastand each odas feelings...even if we argue,love,smiles,laughter,vulgarities and all those werds,and characters...

even a fren told me wen im on my way to sch..y people take advantage of people whose patient??..and i answered,because we are nice,patient is good..and maybe they will face the same thing..they will regret...dont worry mariah..love full of adventures and bulliness,sadness and worry...as long as ur nt being tricked it ok...

well i see alot in life..and i use this as wat they called..anjakan paradigma..i also weak but now i help my frens alot,i used my past life to help them..to bring them the relief,the smile...

as wat they called me shaz mature..haha..even hazmi said that...aku rase dalam kite semue kau yang matured ar shaz...

well i dono abt tat...but Allah knows more...

well i feel like life is better,my studies alhamdulillah getting better,alhamdulillah i always pray at mosque..thats my 2010 aims..one of them..


Pulanglah padanyer..dia lebih baik untuk kau...
Wahai Allah...Macam Mana ingin aku pulang sedangkan dia berpunya??

Maka sabarla...

Maka Allah..kekalkan la...


Sabarla....