Ramadhan has been a very very very best month for me..because i learnt something..now i learnt not to be noisy, control myself...less irritating n mostly from everyone less annoying..even my best fren said so..ok..but ALHAMDULILLAH, im trying my best now..slow and steady..i noe its nt gonna take about three or one week to change but INSYAALLAH it will somehow u noe, nt disappear but improvements can be noticed..INSYAALLAH..

One ustaz told me..in EVERYTHING that we do, we have to be PATIENT..even when ALLAH has shown us the answer directly or indirectly in WHATEVER we DO..we still HAVE TO be PATIENT...

In general effort has to put in..and the rest LEAVE IT TO ALLAH..when we are sad or down thinking abt what happened to our LIVES..we always think ALLAH SETS EVERYTHING FOR US..WE HAVE TO BUILD THIS YAKIN IN OUR IMAN THAT EVERYTHING COMES FROM ALLAH..somemore now is the HOLY MONTH..get near to ALLAH and ask him the best..

You know guys people ard me whom i loved the MOST..said to me that made me think..although its hurting to hear n accept the fact..I know by being the other way round, n changed and also DOA N PUT IN EFFORT N LEAVE TO ALLAH...INSYAALLAH maybe the people ard us will tend to be near me more, feel comfortable..n who knows CLOSER...INSYAALLAH..

Even when we put in our effort and eventhough it has a bad or good ending, it is already fated and things happen for a REASON..ONLY ALLAH KNOWS FERST..but we will noe on the later part..because ALLAH wants us to LEARN from MISTAKES and He PROMISES THE BETTER ONES ARE STILL YET TO COME..

We must have that YAKIN..build it in our IMAN..


InsyaAllah....

ok sch is closing abt nxt week?..WOW..hehehe..
BUT...i need to study and learn my mistakes..
i dint study for common test...

RESULT FLUNK!!!!!

But now..EVERYTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE..

SO LETS CONTINUE...

MUST FOCUS...!!!!!






effort is needed in everything we do...

I just dont wanna disturb you because maybe ur busy, busy with projects, test..

sometimes i thought i wanna msg u but i as think back i might disturb u..

sometimes i am waiting for ur msg but i guess ur busy also..

sometimes i think maybe ur waiting for my msg..

or maybe we both are waiting for both messages..

Sometimes i dont noe whether wen i told you abt the truth that night, do u happened to think abt it or

you are waiting for msg frm me..

or me waiting for ur response

i really dont noe..

i am giving you ur space and time for your own..because i know ur heart-broken..

hey cheer up..

i mean dont be really sad..maybe this heart-broken may lead you to a new and better person..

take your time.

but listen, hey, even when he's with another girl, u won't die..u still have ur frens and families..maybe me, well that is if u remember me..u may see him everyday at school, but the best result, stay away..because if not, ur the one getting hurt, trust me..well i dont force you..its up to anyway..but still, i care for you..and i dont know whether u msg me or nt, but i dont think so, coz if i dont reply u shud have called me..and one more, if u happened seeing him walking together with his ********....dont get sad or pain in heart, remember, Allah is beside you coz he will make ur heart stronger and promise u a better and the best love...

insya life will be simpler...

i dont really care when u read this, scolding me or hating me..but at the end of the day, u will realised all this is good for you..

i hope u know who i meant..

tc

salam...

When the ferst time I sensed something..when the ferst time that my heart told me, i just can't stop thinking about it..maybe it's something that is true, something that's going to happen..but what can i do? To see and to help, that's all i could do..

When something tells me that this guy is going to have a new person in life, I just share with Allah and I decided to tell him..and i told him, I said to him to be honest and true, to be straight forward and be honest, really honest..I really guessed he knows what I meant..andai kata memang benar dia ade seseorang dalam hidup dia, berterus teranglah..tapi apakan daya, orang tak percaya on what i've been trying to say..malah, the gerl scolded me..and when i view on the other website, i read, on what he said..that he wanted to know more about this gerl..and i suspected..it is true..its just the same as what my heart told me..it tells me that it is possible for him to have a new girl when school reopens..

And i just keep quiet..keeping quiet until one day hati tergerak memberitahu sesuatu..KALAU ALLAH NAK TUNJUKKAN KAU DIA DENGAN ORANG BARUNYER, ALLAH BOLEH TUNJUKKAN...and i just doa..

And my heart told me..u dont have to tell the gerl that this guy has a new person in life..just let the guy tell this gerl..

O Allah, I can only make dua for the best..If what my heart told me that just let the guy to tell the gerl upon the arrival of a new person in his life..i pray to you..let this guy tell the gerl and be honest..and make the gerl feel strong..

Please Allah....

I hope he tell...

Life And Honour

When you look into the mirror and see your ownself, do you see any changes in your past life and do you realised it?...If there is, who changed you???

People..yes people..wake UPPPPPPPPP!!!...

WAKE UPPP AND NOTICED KIAMAT IS NEAR...SO WAKE UP AND REPENT..INSYA..

do u really noe how it feels like?..sometimes i think u really dont appreciate me in life..all the things u want is me considering urself..not me but its always u...u told me not to say this and that which hurts u...do u care about my feelings?..stop comparing me...u dont EVEN CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL..u dont even wanna noe how ive been trying to help..to get updated abt ur life..DO U KNOW THAT?..DO YOU?...ALL U NOE IS SITTING N CRYING LIKE DUNIA NK KIAMAT..u dont even care how myself trying to help u..but all the thing u that came out frm u is SCOLDING AND NOT GIVING ANY CHANCES FOR ME TO SAY IT OUT...FRM LASTIME TILL NOW..ALL THE THING I SAID TO U, U WON'T EVEN BELIEVE....U TINK WHAT IM SAYING IS STUPID AND DOSENT MAKE ANY SENSES..well atleastla ATLEAST..i tried to help u..BUT IF U DONT WANA HELP URSELF AND NOT GIVING ME ANY CHANCES TO HELP U..THEN IT WILL NOT HELP ANYTHING..ANYTHING....u always say to me u wont go to the past and look forward..WELL HAVE U EVER WONDERED ALLAH MAYBE WANT U TO COME BACK AND CHANGE THE BACK TO UR FORWARD LIFE?..HAVE U?..HAVE U?..HAVE UUUUUUUUU?....

Satu Hari Luqman menasihati anaknya...Wahai anakku, jikalau kau teringin membuat maksiat, carilah tempat dimana Allah tidak dapat nampak..

Move On

Its The Best

You can know what's in your life when you know what's in your heart.....

Yes..we won't know what's in life when won't what's in our heart..same goes as we don't try or put in effort..i guess this two reasons work well..maybe we know our life when we know what's in our heart and after we already knew it, we put in effort and pray to ask for the best..make sense right?..wel it does..but we have to remember Allah at all times because despite Malaikat whisper to our heart what's happening or what's going to happen in life or guidance and etc..Syaitan can take charge of our heart if we don't zikr to Allah and always remember Allah azza wajalla..

There's a reason why heart is important..look if we don't listen to our heart..who else we want to listen..that is why people always says trust your heart...what your says?..ask your heart..and yes sometimes we have to think upon what our heart told us..if not how are suppose to know?..

One ustaz said to me as i asked him whether could we trust what our heart tells us?..he said YES!..do zikr to Allah oftenly..insyaAllah..When i realised and know it..i smiled and said InsyaAllah...

haish..i dont see people are happy..but sad...my auntie was warded and yesterday she started talking craps..kucing, jaga kucing, jangan siksa kucing, mandikan kucing..bawah ada paku..and mcm2 lah..i witnessed the way she said kindly similar to what my arwah nenek said..and yala, scary but my parents and her children just say igt ALLAH..beside her ear..ingat ALLAH..thats how very important in humans life..and i hope her condition gets better...but ALLAH has the will..all in his hands..

and ya, i hope her condition gets better...and my sis is worried..coz she gg back to m'sia today and having exams tmr..she can't even concentrate..i just remembered the days of my late nenek..how my frens were bside me..how one of my fren who consoled my sister..i suddenly remembered about the past..


but ya just leave it man..





and the other part..i just felt angry and bingit..coz i just see that its an EMPTY PROMISES.!!

arrhh..batok la...suddenly woke up for the past two days and then my throat felt different man..orang semue ckp..tgh musim sakit..okla agreed, coz my frens pon sakit, my sepupu pon, my bro and me and dad..mcm2 hal..and yala need to rest...

wondering and wondering..i actually felt sad for my fren ar..sedih ar..tgk aku nyer kisah hidup..aku fikir hidup dia lagi sedih ar..but then i just can say insya it will be alrite..kesian dia...tapi tak taulah kan sebab ade aku tgk mcm ok ade kadang sedih..aku cuma doakan la..jauhkan dia dari orang tula..itu yang terbaik la..insya..

Ok today is wed and tmr is thurs and soon will be friday..and its gonna be the third week of school..yala some students may have a hard time adapting in a new environment and maybe the vista is not so good i think...ok here goes..waa alot of freshies and ya ade yang aku kenal sey...my juniors..HAHAHAHA..sesat carik tempat..LOL...SUPER LOL...

and im starting to understand this deng deng thermofluids..atlast...AT LAST!!!!...AND YA MATHS PON....then we hate this programming lecturer..super dont understand man..computer programming really really hard..or students prefer to say SUCKS...ya..got it..and the best thing..COPY..no choice man..a bit of trying but more on copying..seriously damn hard..y must study comp prog..shit..

well now i see a brighter day ahead of me..lastime yala..abit BONGOK ar..emoshit..da bongok abeh emoshit..damn stupid..bcoz of that my results pon flop..but eversince im in sem 2..my grades are improving..bcoz i know that determines my future..and when i stepped into my class..i can feel more improvement coming up..jadi sesiapa yang sedang emoshit..tolonglah..focus kat blaja..jgn jadi mcm aku..nnt susah..

i took my past n present to see the real me..to help my frens..advice them..maybe i also need advice..need guidance too..yeah..but i sure know one thing..i f we want something..we have to work for it..

if we want to move on w life, we can make it happen..if we want to succed..we can make it...

i want i want i want i want..with this werds..it will make like a prayer and insyaAllah it will be true..

if we say susah, nape susah nie..aku mcm susahlah..haish susahlah..abes bile nk game???..if susah,susah...of kos it will be MORE susah..seriously..

experience made me feel abit more matured ar...frankly speaking..and i believe if people can succeed so can we..

ade ferst week of sch da stress..ade sedih..ade happy..ade tkt..ade emo..ade depress..releksla..sooner or later...akan jadi ok..

Yeay..school was awesome...POWER DOK..!!!

ok learnt this new module about THERMOFLUIDS, DAMN ITS SOOOOO HARD..need to memorise all formulas..Hiyo..!!!!!!

so atlast meet my classmates after about two months plus at home..HEHEHE..graduation ceremony pon da nak dekat..i dono wether to help ambassadors for graduation day..GONNA MISS MY SENIORS..but atleast i understand alot.CHEYY...!!!!!!!!!!mcm PAHAM..

im starting to love school...HAHAHAHAHA..and i believe one day when graduated frm NYP..im gonna miss them too, like how my seniors are gonna miss their frens..

i wonder..life will be empty without a smile in our face even if we are happy,sad,angry and bla bla..yeah i realise..life isnt as easy as we thought when we were a kid..

but still, its really fun man..new CANTEEN ey..

sometimes i ask myself...its not about what we shud do but can do..its not about that...

its about what u shud do and can do on what u shud do..if we shud do this or that..we can do..if its not about what we shud do..how can we do it??

get the idea?

example..shud means harus..harus tu mesti...mesti tu mcm wajib..

so we shud pray five times a day..means we can pray five times a day..

sometimes we shud pray five times per day but we dont pray five times per day..that is diff..

that means shud tu harus..ITS JUST THAT NAK ATAU TKNAK..!!!

everything in ths werld we shud do sth and then we can do sth..but when we shud do sth its ALL ABOUT OUR OWNSELVES WETHER WE WANT IT OR NOT!!!

ITS ABOUT WHAT WE SHUD DO AND CAN DO...ITS NOT ABOUT WHAT WE SHUD DO BUT

CAN DO..

IF THE SHUD TAK BOLE BUAT..MCM MANE KITE NAK BUAT?

SO GET RIGHT PEOPLE..

ALLAH UTUSKAN NABI HARUS MENYAMPAIKAN KALIMAH ALLAH AND NABI CAN DO?

YES HE CAN BCOZ HE SHUD DO...SHUD IS LIKE A COMMAND!!

GDNYT!!

SMILES ALWAYS

ok...my timetable was out three weeks ago..whooaaaaa...

here it goes..mon: 8 to 4..damn
tues: 9 to 1,,
wed: 9 to 3
thur: 9 to 5
fri: 9 am to 10 am..



HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA..better sleep on friday...

Can't wait for school to OPENNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hati Dari Allah....

Dengan Nama Allah...Sesungguhnya Aku berkata dengan nama Allah..

Aku termenung sekejap..tengok langit, tengok bagaimana ia berjalan..bagaimana Allah menukarkan bulan mengganti matahari manakala sampai waktunya, matahari kemudian digantikan bulan..

Allah kau menjadikan matahari, kau yang menguasai segalanya..tanpa izin kau, langit tidak akan bergerak, matahari tidak akan digantikan..bulan tidak bercahaya..semuanya sifat kau..

Satu ketika aku sedang berbaring, memikirkan apa akan terjadi sekiranya orang yang aku sayang meninggalkan aku..apa akan terjadi sekiranya aku tidak ade di dunia ini..apa akan terjadi kalau aku mati tapi tidak diredhai Allah..kalau di alam kubur dengan malaikat mungkar dan nangkir menanya aku siapa rabb ku..dan sekiranya aku menjawab Allah tuhanku..maka dari situlah dengan pertanyaan yang pertama dapat dijawab, insyaAllah, yang lain pon bole dijawab..dan insyaAllah selamat di masyhar, sirat, dan syurga..

aku memikirkan tentang seseorang..mungkin pada aku seseorang yang aku tidak dapat lupakan..

aku bukan jiwang atau emo..tapi apa yang aku sedang lafazkan adalah ape yang aku simpan..simpan hingga dapat mengeluarkan pada masa yang diizinkan Allah..

tiap-tiap hari aku fikirkan si Dia..kalau si Dia membaca mungkin dia tahu siapa yang aku maksudkan..tapi demi Allah, bukan kerana aku ini terlalu jiwa...

kadang-kadang aku takut dia rasa sedih nie mcm mane..maksud aku..tiap-tiap kali hati aku berbisik, berbisik memberitahu aku sesuatu..sesuatu yang akan berlaku..

" Kau mesti sabar, Allah maha berkuasa, Maha bijaksana, Maha adil.."

aku tak tau nk buat ape tapi aku mengadu kepada Allah ape yang hati aku bisik..tetapi makin hari, makin hati ini memberitahu aku sesuatu dan ingin aku membuat sesuatu..

" Sabarlah shaz..Allah ade di tepi kau, berdoa pada Allah, berharap pada Allah, segalanya datang dari Allah..lambat laun, dia akan merasai ape yang kau rasa, dia akan tau macam mana rasa hati yang sakit..kau fikir lelaki itu hendak ke dia?..kau fikirlah..

dia akan tau dan nilaikan sesuatu yang baik untuk dirinya nnt akan datang satu hari yang mana kekasih dia seperti sudah malas dengan dia dah mcm putus asa kepada dia....kau harus bimbing dia..kau harus berada di tepi dia..sesungguhnya dia memerlukan kau..

aku hati kau..hati allah berikan kepada kau..Allah ingin kau membuat sesuatu..percayalah cakap aku...satu ketika nanti bila dia perlukan kau..bila dia carik kau, datang pada diri dia..berikan dia kata semangat, berikan dia kekuatan, beritahu dia untuk teruskan perjalan hidup, beritahu dia bahawa dia patut menerima seseorang yang baik untuknya...

Tapi kenape dia carik aku?..ape sebab dia mencari aku?...

Dia mencari kau kerana dia tahu kau merasai ape dia rasai sekarang..dia carik kau sebab dier perlukan orang di tepi dia, dia carik kau sebab dia perlu kau..

dia cari kau sebab dia tahu, kau boleh tolong dia, kau boleh bimbing dia..bimbing dia menjadi orang yang lebih baik..dengarlah kata aku..

Sesungguhnya Allah berkuasa..Allah memilih kau..sebab Allah percayakan kau..Dia maha Mengetahui lagi maha bijaksana..

tapi dia berkata dia tidak memerlukan aku, dia tidak mahu memberitahu aku apa apapun..

Sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana...

aku pon bagun..aku tanya..

hati aku tidak senang..aku bertanya seorang ustaz..

salam ya ustaz..saya ingin tanya, ape patutkah kita mempercayai kata hati kita?..maka ustaz itu berkata, Boleh!...sebab itulah kita harus memperbanyakkan zikrullah..zikir..boleh dipercayai..memang boleh..adek jangan takut..Allah ade..

hari demi hari aku bertanya kepada ustaz..

ade yang memberitahu kata hati ini ade dua, satu petunjuk Allah, satu dari syaitan..terpulang kepada amal kita..kalau amal kita kuat, insyaAllah itu adalah kata petunjuk dari allah..islam menyruh kita memperbanyakkan rohani...insyaAllah..

aku tidak tahu kenapa aku begini..Allah sahaja yang tahu..

Allah, apa benar semua nie??

aku teringat jikalau seseorang ada masalah, berwudhukla, berdoa kepada Allah..solat dua raka'at, dan mengadu kepada allah..beritahu Allah..hatiku menyuruh aku memberitahu Allah..

selepas aku menunaikan solat..aku mengangkat tangan aku..sambil menangis..

Ya Allah sesungguhnya hati aku memberitahu aku sesuatu ya Allah..sesuatu yang akan seperti berlaku..dengan nama kau Allah..sesungguhnya aku mengadu kepada kau..kau lebih mengetahui..ya Allah, selamatkanlah dia, jagalah hati dia..kuatkanlah hati dia..ya Allah, dekatkanlah dia yang baik dan jauhkan lah dia yang buruk..ya Allah aku tk boleh tipu kau dengan hanya berkata aku sayang dia..sayang dia lebih dari diri aku..aku tk boleh tipu kau ya Allah sebab aku tahu kau melihat kepada hati..dan sebab itulah aku memberitahu kau ape yang hatiku kata..

ya Allah sesungguhnya hati aku berkata bahawa lelaki itu btol2 ke nk si dia..aku takut aku jahat..tapi ya ALLAH..kalau memang benar, aku berdoa agar lelaki itu berterus terang dengan dia..jadi hati dia tidak dilukai dengan lebih luka..

ya Allah hatiku memberitahu aku sesuatu..yang dia memerlukan aku..dia akan merasai ape yang aku rasa..hatiku berkata setiap perbuatan dia engkau akan membalas..ya Allah kalau kau balas dengan dia merasai ape aku rasa..kuatkanlah dia ya Allah, kuatkanlah dia..dan kau kuatkanlah hati dia..pilih la dia ya Allah...hatiku memberitahu aku yang dia perlu aku, dia mencari aku..dan hatiku menyuruh aku untuk dekat pada dia..kerana kau percayakan aku..kerana memang kau percayakan aku..sesungguhnya kau maha agung..kau maha bijaksana..ya Allah, jikalau memang ape yang berlaku ini ada kebaikan untuk dia berikanlah, berikanlah agar dia menyadari nya..agar dia tau kuasa kau Allah..insyaAllah aku akan berada di tepi dia, insyaAllah..

Hatiku menambah..sesungguhnya doa kau telah sampai kepada Allah..maka sabarlah..

maka dari situ tiba2 aku dapat mesej dari dia..memberitahu aku yang dia kene ape yang aku kena dan tiba2 lelaki itu mesej aku memberitahu aku yang dia kurang senang dengan si dia, lalu putuskan hubungan.. si dia beritahu aku ape yang dia rasa, segala pedih, pahit, sedih, sakit...banyak lagi..dia memberitahu aku yang dia sedar ape yang telah terjadi..dia memberitahu aku kadang2 dia akan menangis..dia seperti tk percaya..jadi aku memberitahu dia beritahu dia supaya dia kuat dengan takdir Allah move on, jangan menagis, aku memberi dia perangsang, keyakinan..memang benar apa hatiku kata..

sabar, ingat allah, mungkin semue ade pengajaran..insyaAllah nanti Allah akan memberi nikmat cinta, cinta untuk Allah..

What is cinta kerana Allah??

Cinta kerana Allah seperti dimana Allah memperkenalkan seseorang dalam hidup..maka terimalah pemberian Allah, terimalah dia seadanya..terimalah balek apa Allah berikan..terimalah kerana Allah..

aku beritahu dia..do u know, ur relationship ith this guy is just a lesson for u to learn?..which wat u told me..before it happened, i knew it..

dia senyap, dan agree..

dan hatiku kata kepada aku, perlahan-lahan, sesungguhnya Allah maha adil..sabarlah shaz..kau mampu sebab itulah Allah memilih kau..

Ya Allah terimalah taubat dia..dari dulu aku berdoa agar kau dapt terima taubatnya, pilih dia untuk hidayat mu ya Allah..aku percaya dia boleh..ya Allah aku nampak dan aku rasa...sesungguhnya bila dia diuji mu...dia akan mendekatkan dirinya dengan mu..demi nyawa kami dalam dzatmu..pilih dia ya Allah..dan ya Allah hati aku berkata tidak mustahil si lelaki ini ade perempuan laen nnt ketika sekolah buka..maka aku doalah ya Allah..jauhilah hati si dia dari lelaki ini agar hati dia sihat tk terluka..jagalah hati dia..jagalah..

akhir2, aku nampak dia begitu dekat kepada Allah, sukanya dia kepada Islam..menanyakan sesuatu perkara kepada aku..aku cuba sedaya upaya aku..

aku tengok dia dan hati aku berkata..insyaAllah, Allah akan memilih dia..

hatiku berkata lagi..nnt satu hari dia akan mendapat petunjuk sama yang kau dapat dahulu..

dengarlah shaz..memang dia berkata dia perlukan kau sebagai kawan, namun nnt, lambat laun, dia sedar yang dia benar2 memerlukan kau...benar2..percayalah..

dia akan tahu..dia akan sedar yang kaulah orangnyer...bersabarlah..

berilah dia masa..jangan memaksa..

aku pernah berdoa....

kalau lelaki itu tidak baik untuknya dan sememangnya lelaki itu ada perempuan lain..jauhkanlah si dia dari lelaki itu ya Allah..kuatkanlah dia..

kalau si dia membaca dan marah kepada aku..aku minta maaf..

When the time we feel sad..we turned to Allah..

ya we all know we are weak..but deep inside the weakness, there's always strength..

i know how u feel, how it hurts you, how it really made u cry, how painful it is..

but don't worry, for he will be beside u all along...

but when we are sad..happiness awaits us..for which it will erase all the painfulness and saddness, the hurt and the cry..i don't know why and what made u come to me..only u and Allah knows..

i don't know why i aive u the support, the courage, the confidence for you to move on..but when we had conversations..i tried to make u laughed..i wanna share with you the fun so that u will be better, stronger, and it can overtake the pain, hurt you are feeling right now..but u told me..

"hey gtg..just msg lata or what ok?"...

well i know im not like the guy you used to have the fun with..and i respect that..maybe u were a bit uncomfortable..maybe it reminded you of the past..

nevermind..ya i was abit sad when u said that..i wanna make u smile..but tkpela..i just step back abit..

maybe not abit..if my presence will just made u feel uncomfortable..then i say..

im sorry..

tc.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Thinking about the messages and blogs..issit she message me bcoz Allah open her heart meaning by her own heart or just people message her than she remembers me?...

Look Ahead Of You

What was my most happening event that happened in my life?

well thinking about it again i really kinda don't believe it..haha..coz certain people can't do it..

Well lastime i dono how i came across her and thinking about it back..it was funny..and weird.

She was like so called a wild type girl..u know teenagers nowadays.. i saw one couple..they thought salam mataer is good,taat..padahal kalau org tu fikir balek..dosa.Its sinful bcoz u know hanya suami isteri yang buat mcm gtu..tu baru taat yang menjamin syurga..mataer salam dapat dosa untuk diri mereka..kelakar kan..hiash..dunia nak kiamat..

Back to the story..yeah well she was abit mcm very nk susah percaya its her..well she knows me and somehow i got to know her closer and she told me this and that..which made me hard to believe..and scared at the same time..bcoz only Allah knows how it feels..but as days past by..i just did my normal prayer...and from there she noticed a different in me..well i dono..only she undastands..lately she knows im a type that knows the laws in Islam..and she got to know i prayed in the mosque..

As i know i did asked her to pray in the cabin..for a moment she kept quiet and thought about it for a while and in the end she agreed..may Allah forgive her..

and i taught her bit by bit..i know how to make her understand and sometimes when she asked me...i will tell her to make her fully understand..and she continued her prayer..and told me..eversince shes with me, she really feel at peace bcoz she started praying eventhough its hard for her to adapt..bcoz i know lastime she knows how to pray but she dint..

sooner she really really into Islam..jaga solat..which made me happy..may Allah forgive her..till then she started going to the mosque..may Allah forgive her..and she did told me she wanted to wear scarf...but i know shes not ready yet bcoz its very hard for women to change...i taught slowly by slowly like how my dad slowly taught my mother...maybe i follow my dad more..mostly wat i did was wat my dad did during his teen years..

She told me when she came out from the mosque..'rindu masjid'...but then i told her mosque is not wajib fo women to perform their prayer..the place yang paling afdal untuk wanita adalah kamar tidur mereka..

So she took my advice and understand it..may Allah forgive her..

then she slowly wear scarf..going out wearing scarf until her frens dint recognize her..but i know for her type its quite hard..she needs support..and wen i say to her wen the time she put on the scarf meaning she have to jaga aurat. Even wen shes going out to buy kitchen stuffs..jemur kain kt luar ke..still she have to jaga aurat...it is hard for women..

i don't realise i did those stuffs..to change her..from that moment.i just say to Allah..theres a reason why u chose me..which i cant say..i did say to her..with this werld in ur heart..im sorry if change u to be like this..well she answered me..bcoz of u,i changed to be better u guided me..i do not wanna lose you bcoz ur the one who resulted me in this situation and i really bersyukur..

May Allah forgive you.

How in the world i could change a wild-type girl to this kind of a new girl..

well my heart told me..

"Kerana agama perempuan terpikat kepada kau..walaupun apa terjadi,orang yang die akan kembali adalah orang yang membimbing dia dahulu which is you"......

May Allah Forgive Me

Salam..yeah,todae i got my results..yeah, i passed all,alhamdulillah, and GPA increased alhamdulillah..but still not as wat as i expected..but as i know, keep trying..i wished my smart sec 2 brain will come in me again..nvm,slow and steady wins the game...


yeahhh

Chances Are From ALLAH

Weeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks For The Wishes Guys....

Prophet Muhammad....

Tabligh is the work done by muslims to others to call to Allah.Its is the same work that was carried out by Prophets and Messengers..Nuh,Luth,Yaacob,Ibrahim,Musa,Isa,Ismail,Muhammad S.A.W..Since Muhammad is the final prohpet..it is our duty on every muslim to invite to and call people to Allah..

The main purpose is to understand the kalimah Laillahaailallah Muhammadur Rasulullah..Tabligh purpose is to ensure all muslims jalankan agama...It was founded by Maulana Muhammad Illyas Kandhalawi somewhere in India..during his days performing the hajj..

The Tabligh jamat flew off to Southeast asia..dari situ mereka sebarkan agama pada tahun 1946..and within 20 years..islam was spread to europe,North America,Asia Pacific,Africa..

Tabligh,they called Fisabilillah..Meaning keluar ke jalan Allah,bkn dari jalan Allah,itu murtad..tetapi Keluar ke jalan Allah..Go in the path of Allah..menyampaikan agama


Korban Masa Untuk agama,cinta agama,beri masa untuk Agama...

In life,Tabligh teaches us how to get the believe in Allah with this six points that Sahabah has hold on tightly till their last days..

1. Iman
2. Shalaat
3. Ilmu And Dhikr(Knowledge And Remembrance Of Allah)
4. Ikramul Muslimin(Muslim to respect every Muslims)
5. Ikhlas Niat(Sincerity Of Intention)
6. Dakwah Dan Tabligh(To spare time in the path of Allah)

Atleast in our life beri masa keluar ke jalan Allah,selama 3 hari sebulan,40 hari setiap tahun,4 bulan seumur hidup..

Alim Ulama memberitahu setiap amalan kita buat diganjarkan dgn 10 pahala..maka dalam sebulan ade 30 hari,dengan sepuluh pahala,we divide it to sacrifice three days in each month for going in the path of Allah..365 days in one year..so we take 365 divide by 10,we get 36.5 days,which is equivalent to 40 days if we round off..and Muhammad said once..we live in this werld till 60 to 70 years..so we take 60 to 70 years and divide by 10..it shud be near to 6 months,7 months but we take 4 months...

So from now i undastand y we go in the path of ALLAH for 3 days,40 days and 4 months..let me show u y i say 4 months..Lastime i dint believe y shud we go out in the path of Allah for 4 months..

this is the ans...

Maka keluarlah kamu wahai kaum Musyrikin di atas muka bumiku selama 4 bulan lamanya dan ketahuilah kamu tidak terlepas dari azab seksaan Allah dan ingatlah Allah akan menghina orang-orang kafir...

surah At Tawbah..

Allah menguji orang kafir dengan perintahnya..from there, i dint pay atention to whom Allah meant this verse to but The factor that attract me and made me believe is 4 months in the path of Allah..MasyaAllah..why am i so stupid and being blinded by the world's decoration..

Every verses of Al Quran Allah firman..jalanku,jalanku,jalanku...it dosent has to be Madinah,Makkah..bumiku,every parts of the world..

There was a time when we go out in the path of Allah..My dad said..barangsiapa yang keluar di jalan Allah sepagi dan sepetang..maka ia lebih baek dari dunia dan seisi nya..debu2 yang melekat di baju kita akan diharamkan ke atas api neraka...

That time i asked myself,issit true?

Until one day maybe Allah wanted to show me the guidance,hidayah..i received one email..this email it talks about the beauty in Islam..and it finalizes its sentences by saying..

Sepagi sepetang keluar jalan Allah lebih baik dari dunia dan seisinya,debu2 yang melekat di badan kita akan diharamkan asap api neraka...

That email is still with me..

Now after all i have say, i do hope the meaning of tabligh will never be erased frm ur mind..

Sesungguhnya Muhammad S.A.W mempunyai satu sifat dalam empat sifat beliau..Tabligh,meaning menyampaikan agama..kerana,Muhammad menyampaikan agama dgn kalimah Allah..Now,Muhammad is no longer here..it will be our turn to continue this Muhammad's werk that has been carried out during his days till we die...

salam alaik..

There was time when i was about 9 yrs old..haha..i dint pay attention during science klass and during exam time,i was blur...and i answered this qn...

What Happen If You Poke A Ballon With A Pin?

I answered...It Will BOOM..

Boom instead of Burst..

Cuzzies Outing.

hie people...fuuhhh,just nw was maths..hahahaha..last semester i got 68 for maths...hahaha..according to o level..its B3..WOW...hahha


BANGGA...

ok luckily i managed to do the sums..hah,its hard,yeah of kos..hehehe..but we wont know its easy until we try and practice..to my silat frens..im sorry i have to withdraw from tanding coz due to my ringht ankle injury,insyaAllah i will try to train my leg again..biasekan kaki exercise..

and seorg ustaz berkata to my fren whom recently jadi kendarat and betaburkan pinggan..

Pengalaman membuat kita lebih matang..yeah...

When i entered the mosque..i hold up my arm with my palm open..

...Allahummaf Tahli Abwaba Rahmatik...

When im inside the mosque..i prayed and ask Allah all the stuffs that has happened in life...

i let out everything from my heart and will sart to cry..crying and letting out each of every feelings of mine...Sometimes i did felt as if im a very very very very bad person in life after i had let it out..

I will ask y i should be the one who has to be patient??

But i know when we are patient,Allah is beside us..he loves his creation to be patient...

And I ask him...

Allah,i have no power,nothing compared to you..

I leave it to you Allah..

I read a book about this one special prayer...it is called as i know..Istikharah....i was introduced to this prayer when i had problems choosing the path which is good for me and as well being protected from Allah....

This prayer is suitable for people who having difficulties to decide which is the best for them..

In this prayer,one seek Allah's guidance and help to ease the problems around them...Because Allah knows everything even things thats invisible in life..Ya,thats ALLAH..he's Al-Malik..

Al-Malik means king of the kings...

So in this prayer,Allah will show us the answers that we've been looking for..the problems will vanished away..

So before we ask him,we should ask him these three things...

YA ALLAH,GIVE US UR GUIDANCE FOR WHICH IS BEST FOR OUR RELIGION?OUR LIFE?OURSELVES?

The answers to the prayers may come through...REALITY,DREAMS,HEART..

but most commonly it is performed by people whose getting married,so that they don't choose wrongly...

InsyaAllah..

Days..

Last Monday..last day of school till april...WOW..wednesday,1 year my granny left us..miss u nenek..

Conversation...

Mariah :......Actually every gerl in this werld wants to be w a guy who have alot of knowledge in islam..the one who can guide them one day...the one that has good ilmu and all...

Myself :.....ouh so ur saying every gerl in this dunia looking for a guy or husband that can guide them,slowly and etc...

Mariah :...ya,actualli...truthfully i say im attracted to ur knowledge...semue wanita inginkan org mcm gtu..agama kuat,berilmu,and mcm2...

Myself :..ouh ok..insyaAllah u will find someone like tat..mcm surah an noor..org yang baik akan bersama dengan org yang baik manakala yang jahat dengan org yang jahat..

Mariah:...yea,its something like tat....






Conversation between me and her...fuh mcm kene temuduga...hahahaha...but ya,maybe its true...women do look for man with great knowledge about religion...well i guessed tats true rite mariah?...hmmm so just relax..insyaAllah there will be one for u...Although u dint say much..i can read from inside....haha...great silat kickings eh..


Issit true for women???...issit right?????

That every gerl wants to be with a guy yang kuat agama??..even my sis says so..

Issit?

I Don't know.....

NYP VS SP

Sapu Shaz...

AMEK KAU...

PASANG......

Mosque....

Do You Miss Shazrul??

Fehrin Said.... Yeah..I Can Always Find Him In The Mosque...

Darul Ghufran..

Why??

Lastime i was called an immature..i wont learnt a lesson,i wont learnt my misatkes..
but now i do..im matured enough to make me realise how important life is...
do u like it if someone u loved most,but now with oda ppl and said to u abt the new person??...obviously people will hurt...

so many books ive read and i learnt alot...y must people take advantage of people who is really patient,commited and all...wen someone found a new pair,fren and oda stuffs,they forget the old people...

they say that people are like that...and i once cried alot of times..y my grandmother go away to the oda werld?...i regret and i wished she is still alive..bcoz i dont really talked to her tat much wen im bz w oda ppl,sch and stuffs..but now i really the great loss...same goes for families and frens and relatives...somtimes im angry and wanna scold...but i think again.theres no need...


but as i grow older..i wonder..i have a good fren,best fren and love..natasha..shes a fren of mine and she always made me smile..hazmi who always give me support when im having my depression in life..yasin,who always talked w me abt movies and sch stuffs..helmi who always made critical jokes that always put a smile on my face...

tashy always says to me that shes having some probs and i think..i may have problems ard me but there are other people whos having much more than me...

i do find shes diff,from lastime..the way she talked..and stuffs..3 years we separated..from 2007..wow..i missed them all...

that's lousy man...maybe we nid to undastand each odas feelings...even if we argue,love,smiles,laughter,vulgarities and all those werds,and characters...

even a fren told me wen im on my way to sch..y people take advantage of people whose patient??..and i answered,because we are nice,patient is good..and maybe they will face the same thing..they will regret...dont worry mariah..love full of adventures and bulliness,sadness and worry...as long as ur nt being tricked it ok...

well i see alot in life..and i use this as wat they called..anjakan paradigma..i also weak but now i help my frens alot,i used my past life to help them..to bring them the relief,the smile...

as wat they called me shaz mature..haha..even hazmi said that...aku rase dalam kite semue kau yang matured ar shaz...

well i dono abt tat...but Allah knows more...

well i feel like life is better,my studies alhamdulillah getting better,alhamdulillah i always pray at mosque..thats my 2010 aims..one of them..


Pulanglah padanyer..dia lebih baik untuk kau...
Wahai Allah...Macam Mana ingin aku pulang sedangkan dia berpunya??

Maka sabarla...

Maka Allah..kekalkan la...


Sabarla....

NYP OPEN HOUSE

Random..

Beauty and pretty...

more like siblings to me.....

Muslimah....

kepada muslimah..sebenarnya aku sendiri pon tk dapat nk menjawab...tapi aku nk katakan aku bagai seorg yang bodoh,bengap and much more...adakah muslimah pandang kepada akhlak seorg lelaki dan amalannya atau hadiah cincin,jam tangan,baju,kasut,bunga dan rantai??

Aku sifatnya bodoh kerana aku tk dapat memberi hadiah itu semue kepada sesiapa muslimah diantara mereka....lebih2 lagi jikalau bertengkar dan ingin berbaik semula..memangla muslimah sukakan bunga,cincin dan mcm acessories kerana ia dapat mencairkan perasaan..tapi aku tk dapat hadiahkan tu semue..dan aku rasa bagaikan aku nie bodoh sangat..kadang2 aku nk nangis sebab i cant be like other people hadiahkan mataer diorg bunga,jam,cincin mcm2 lagi...aku kdg2 teringin nk memberi tu semue tapi tengokla..aku tk pandai..aku kdg2 cemburu..sebab aku tk sebagus diorg..

namun aku tau Allah faham isi hati aku..
sebab tu aku tanya dan ingin tahu...adakah akhlak,amalan seseorg dan bimbingan atau acessories..mungkin diorng ckp akhlak tapi kalau mereka dapat hadiah sebegitu diorg mesti gembira..

aku betul bodoh...aku cuma dapat memberikan akhlak,amalan,bimbingan aku utk orng yang aku sayang,dan munkin kepada keturunan aku,keluarga aku,supaya mereka tau...kalau boleh aku pon nk hadiahkan mcm gtu jgk..mungkin perasaan semue org yang pernah rasainya

ya Allah..jikalau memang benar apa yang aku dapat tahu..maka ya Allah..berikan yang terbaik selepas itu........

sebab aku lemah

~HADY MIRZA IS GOING LIVE DURING NYP OPEN HOUSE~

laaaaaaaaaaaaaa

School...

Orite Mon is gona be awesome...
School
Results

Wednesday gonna be rowdy...
Cardio
Silat....

End Of January...

Singapore Poly Vs Nanyang Poly....

Aduhai.....

Well today is better than yesterday...
Tommorrow Will be Better than today...


Yeah!!!.....